i havent been sick for so many days in a long long time.

first fever. den cough n flu now.

*lets out a long sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh*

today kena missed an appt again. hais. cos i think i wasnt well enuf to go out yet.

i'm so sick of being at home.

luckily i have my lovers in paris vcd to keep me company :)

the female lead is sooo damn chio



oh well. tmrw's judgement day again. nvr felt so afraid before. cos' this time round, it's really a turning point for me i guess.

mabbe that is wad's stopping me from recovering ba. my subconscious mind doesnt wan to face reality. arghhhhh

29th May 2005

today's a seemingly important day to me. cos' one yr ago, on this day, i celebrated my 21st :)


it's a day that will always remain in my memories. both the good and bad ones.

BUT.

today i'm sick at home.

the fever came ydae morning when i got up for tuition. but it's the first lesson so i dun wan to give it a miss. so i dragged myself to tuition and realised that the agency person din gimme the alphabet of the blk. haiss.

i called her a couple of times but no one picked up.

i was already comtemplating wad to do. i tot that mabbe i shld go to all the different blks to check out if its the one.

but luckily she called me before 10. so imanaged to find my tuition plc after all.

tuition was pretty okie. i stayed for almost 3 hrs. thou the gal's a little quiet and so.

supposed to meet yu later for a show. but i had to dua her cos i still wasn't feelin too good..hais..
sorry gal =

so i went home and started watching tv. suddenly the fever came back again. and i nvr felt so bad in my life before. i was practically shivering and had to wrap myself in a blanket. i couldnt go to sleep too. cos my head was throbbin with pain.

haiss. it was so bad and i was home alone den i was wondering wad happens if i just faint and collapse.

it was really that bad. i havent been so sick in ages. and there wasn't any doctor open at that moment lor.

well. luckily not long after that my dad came back and made barley for me. i think somehow it made me feel better. my ai xin barley :)

started watching the taiwan melody awards from 5 onwards. i was really lookin forward to it. since it's the first time i have scv durin this event ma.

budden well. it felt very terrible watching. and i fell asleep a few times. towards the end i couldn't take it anymore and decided to go to bed.

so i missed the most important awards, the best male n female singer. hais.

lucky i still had a call to put me to sleep:) (i was feeling too sick but still very awake by then)

feelin bad now.cos i was supposed to go watch my mum perform. budden i still feel like puking time and again. just feel very sians to disappoint her ba. hais.

MADAGASCAR



yayy... caught madagascar today.

however it wasnt as good as i expected.

plus the cinema was super cold.

but. it was a super funny funny show! =) i like alex the lion and the 4 penguins! hehh.

and i finally tried nydc at heeren.

mushroom ham baked rice :)

it was nice at the beginning but just got kinda sick of it halfway through it =
okay, gotta sleep soon. m starting my new tuition tmrw!

*wish me luck! :)

im sick.

i hate sore throats.

they make me irritated n easily fed up.

must be the no. of curry puffs, potato chips and chocolates i ate in the past 2 days. haisss

plus my body is aching from the swim. and my arms are burnt.

i'm so unfit!!! =(


pissed to the power of infinity. =\

just got up from a short sleep. okay, mabbe i shouldnt sae got up. it was involuntary but somehow i just cant get back to sleep anymore. so i just woke up to get some water and blog. and hopefully at the end of it, i feel tired enuf.


today(or rather ydae) had been a long day.

made plans to go swimming with di at jus'house. but when i got up, it was still drizzling and she msged to ask if i still wanna go.

feeling a bit sians cos that's no sun, i decided to wait a while more. luckily by 10 plus, the rain had stopped and we could go for our swim! =)

havent swam in ages. in fact i havent exercised in at least 1 mth. the last was the run around sch which was way before the exams.

*-*'''''

but the feeling was good. we kinda had the pool to ourselves. so we just swam and chatted, chatted and swam. probably more chats than swim. but well it was fun fun fun. :)

laters on in the night, it was pubbing at clarke quay. actually wanted to go to 1 night stand. but in the end there was some comedy show going on that you had to pay 50 bucks for. but somehow the person let us in for free. well, but the show was kinda crap and the whole pub was filed with expats. i was beginning to wonder if i was in singapore =/ well anyway.. i couldnt get wad was so funny abt the comedian when he says f*** like at least 3 times in a sentence.

so anyway, when the rest came, we decided to move on to crazy elephant. which happens to be undergoing renovation so we could onli chill outside. the band is crap if u ask me. at least i still prefer the wala wala one. but well. the company was quite good and i learnt 3 impt lessons.

1) dun drink with an empty stomach
2) dun drink beer mixed with other alcoholic drinks
3) dun ever drink long island tea again.


actually i have tried tat drink before and it tasted bad. but somehow they decided to order one jug to share. so i kinda had no choice ma.

so anyway. after all the drinks i had, i started to feel abit seh. or maybe very. and my face went very red,both fromthe sun burnt and the alcohol. and i started to be unable to focus.all was still welland i could tok although mabbe most are crap until we went to to the toilet.

i started to feel like puking. and i did. puked for abt 3 times before i left the toilet. went back to sit and had iced water. and within a few mins i feel the need to puke again. haiss. the process was quite tormenting for me actually. and i really regretted not having proper meal before that. i only had like a curry puff.

so anyway, on the way home, i was so afraid that i would puke in the oh-so-posh car. so i requested a plastic bag. which is damn malu if u ask me lor. but i had no choice. luckily i survived the journey home but immediately puked when i came back.

then i went to sleep without showering. if u know me well enuf, u would know that i cant sleep on my bed at home without showering. so that's how bad i felt. i din even had the energy to shower.

well, i was pretty worried i might have a hangover today. but the fact that i got up now, feeling more awake den i ever did probably means all's well. although i do have a slight sore throat now. haiss..

there's such a high price to pay just to feel numb senses for a few hrs. =
oh well.. im stilll feeliing awake. but i shall just lie back on my bed.

谢谢你爱我


it's you
it's you, baby
waiting for you
仰望着晴朗的天空
突然看见一道彩虹
似乎在暗示着什么
有一种莫名的感动
窗外轻轻吹着微风
像你握握我的手温柔
沉溺在自由的感受
这感觉我找了好久
it's you that i've waited so long
让你牵我的手勇敢往前走
谢谢你爱我
因为你爱我
让我做最真实的我
孤单的时候
偶尔的脆弱
从来不停止保护我
拥有的回忆这么多
让我依靠着你的爱
此刻以后
it's you i'm just waiting for you
it's you my baby

if you have a fetish for handmade stuff , check this out.

http://www.pinc.ws/

haha..i'm a sucker for handmade stuff. especially hand painted stuff.

like this handpainted glass bowl. i got it at the forum bazaar quite some time back.





haha. i love it cos of the bee that's painted on it. i have this thing for bees. (of cos not the real ones la, more of the fake ones.heh)

i've been blogging quite a lot lately. cos i cant get to sleep. even at wee hours like 3 am, i'm still tossing and turning in bed. so i eventually fall asleep around 3 plus or 4 and so when i wake up it's like 1 plus or 2 pm liaos. *-*''''

oh.today on my long bus journey to sengkang, i had some tots.

i always have this habit of saying 早知道 . and someone will always counteract me with 早知道就 中马票 . which is of cos, very true ba. after all, if we knew how our paths in lives would be, we would know exactly wad to do to lead us to the end, if there's one at all.

however, we of cos do not know how our paths in lives would turn out. This uncertainty in life is wad makes it exciting i guess.

i'm very guilty of saying 早知道 sth sth. but as i stop and look back at it, it seems that there's no pt in looking back in life. if we keep looking back, we will nvr look forward which prevents us from moving on with life.

it's true that there are some things we may regret in life. I for one, have regretted not accepting the teaching scholarship 3 yrs back. one of my biggest regrets i would say. But if I look at it in another way, it could be that if i accepted it at that pt in time, i might also regret it. That's life. You make some right decisions, u make some wrong ones.

But that's not what matters. What's most important is that we we leave behind the bad memories and bring with us the good ones to move on in life.

take for example, when a friend was very good to us in the past, we failed to appreciate it. But when things have soured, you start to regret and say if only i had treat her better in the past. We can't go back in time. But the only thing we can do now is probably to treat her as nice as she did in the past so tat at the end of the day, u feel that u have done your best. You would then have no regrets in the frenship.


tat's life. like i always say,

If there's no imperfections in life, we wouldnt know what happiness is.



okay, this is like one of my most serious posts.

Just had a very crazy and lame msn conversation with some from the group.

and someone asked whether i was "overly happy or overly upset"

actually it's neither.

just that mabbe today, i've learnt more abt life than i ever did in the past 1 yr ba :)

just finished watching this jap anime movie.

阿信的故事 .

i've nvr heard of this show before. but well, it's damn touching n sweet. now i understand why some pple just love watching anime. the story line is so good and the graphics as well.

this show is sth like spirited away, prob except that the director is not as famous la. (at least that's wad i think, if not i will noe the show liaos ma..heh)

anyway i was so free that i took some fotos from the screen using my fone. wahhaa. cos the gal is simply too cute le.







haha that's her back view on the right. so cute right. wahhaha :)



she's really so cute that my heart will melt when she cries..

anyway, the story is about this gal called 阿信 as the title suggests who is born into a very poor family with many kids. Being the next oldest child, she has to leave the family to work in other places since the family has problem feeding themselves, although she's only like 7 .

that's when the cruelty of the show begins.
at the first house she works as a servant, she is ill treated by the senior servant, mistaken to have stolen money and thus caused her dismissal from the house.

being misunderstood, she ran away from the house, and fainted from hunger in the snow.
then she was saved by a good guy who allegedly escaped from serving the nation. however, en route to her home, this guy was killed by soldiers. her first encounter with death.

back home, her father refuses to acknowledge her cos' she sorta escaped from work. and to make ends meet, her mum is forced to work as a 陪客.

to make things easier for her family, 阿信 leaves the house to another household to work as a servant. This is when things start to get better for her. The family treated her well and she gets along with their eldest daughter who is of the same age as her.

Things start to get better until she hear news of her grandmother's impending death. She then rushes home to see her for the last time. This is the most touching part i guess. when she starts feeding her grandma pure white rice(ok, the family is too poor to afford pure rice, they usu. mix it with something else) and not long after, her grandmother passes away, but with a smile on her face.

yah.that's abt it la. the story's abt how this little gal grew up in the process, something like spirited away when one is forced to grow up in circumstances. although the storyline is simple, the show is stilll damn sweet la.

i love anime! =)

gonna ransack my sis' cupboards to find more such shows tmrw again.

*time to hit the covers! I can't believe i typed so much..


it's only when we are on the verge of losing things that we truly treasure wad we have.

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(this post is dedicated to ln)



haha.. was surfing on blogs and found this. jay looks so tut here. hahaha..

i also wan to go hk!




hopefully things are really alright.
all the best for tmrw ba! :)

i need someone to tok to.

there doesn't seem to be anyone.

some disappear halfway thru the conversations. i cant get ani point across too. neither do i wan to force it across.

there's just so much that frens can help anyway. many a time, things are up to you.

i just turn to my blog. it will be my faithful fren always.

mistakes. everione makes mistakes in life.

that's where forgiveness comes into play.

are some mistakes so grave that they cant be forgiven? sigh. mabbe. different pple have different perspectives of things.


mabbe there issen such a thing called everlasting happiness in life
nothing in life is certain and lasts forever, especially the good ones.

the below sums up my sunday.

got up at 8. the 1 hr plus drive:) . nap again. eat.cabled. and eat laters again.

wahhaa. i love slacking.

i hope that there will be more such rides to come!

and if you realised, on sundays, channel 55 and 56 are my 2 best frens! ;)

i can practically spend 5 long hrs just sitting in front of the telly, just switching between the 2 channels.

yayy..public hol tmrw. not that it makes too big a diff to me. but yayyy..it's still a holiday!

ok, that's how bored i am.. lalalalaaa

it's been a long time since i last sat down and watched soccer with my daddy :)

and man u lost :(

i hate penalty shoot outs wor. somehow i find it not reflective of the team's standard. it's all by luck de. *yucks. but i must admit that few mins of penalty shoot outs were the most exciting time of the entire game. i'm so scaredy that my heart will miss a beat de. *-*'''' ok, some parts of the extra time was pretty exciting. the 90 mins before that was quite boring(or rather i onli started from 2nd half) .. towards the end i almost wanted to fall asleep le..

so yah. mahjong-ed today AGAIN. won a little.

gonna sleep oredi. gotta get up earli tmrw!

*nites world.

The one about choices

i was finally deciding between 3 models of fone to get. opinions, anyone? (not that many read my blog anyway) all 3 satisifies my criteria of a flip fone.










haha. and just as i was browsing thru the papers, i'm also deciding between 2 mp3 players. actually i duno wad's the difference also. i'm just attracted to both since they are both white!

the one abt dream houses..


1) The sail @ marina bay


well.. in the foto it doesnt look very good. haha. cos it's just a drawing since obviously the condo hasnt been completed. woahh.. imagine a gymnasium that overlooks the sea. i think i will be motivated to go to the gym every single day. wahhaa. of cos. a dream is a dream. heh. this condo is priced way too expensive le. let it just be a house in my dreams ba! =)

2) Caribbean at HarbourFront


today was the first time i came across this while on bus 10 to suntec. it's lovely. situated by the sea, in simple colours and one of my fave too, white! imagine seeing those lovely big cruise ships anchored at the harbour at night. (i duno why. i just have a fetish for cruise ships esp at night) plus going to sentosa is like goin to the market lor. u can do it almost daily!

3) The Waterfront
i can't seem to find a photo on this. but i'm quite sure 99% of singaporeans know where is this. it's this pinkish orange condo along the ECP(which explains why this is my fave stretch of expressway) it used to be my no. 1 dream house until i guess the sail came up. hahaa. i always fantasize abt taking a small boat(owned by me) to oasis for dinner everynight.. wahahha..and i can have taiwan porridge everynight! :) yummsss.


a dream will remain as a dream unless you work towards it

one day i will achieve my dream :)

the whole of today. i felt a deep void within me.

no amt of work could distract me.

mabbe it's got to do with not sleeping with your fone under the pillow. cos someone told me that it will cause cancer or sth due to the radiation. mabbe i feel lack of security when i dun sleep with the fone.

worse still i got up and din get any reply thru sms. smts i shouldnt think too much. i worry too much for my own good. haiss..


as strong as i look on the outside
i crumple easily deep within..
how i wish i could be stronger.
i just need more assurance..

mabbe things are really looking up. =)

today was a simple yet nice day.

mabbe mixing with other frens once in a while does help :)

no stress. no obligations to say things to make others happy.
ability to speak freely matters.
knowing that wadever u say will be kept secret.
no lies. no pretence . knowing the other person is truthful.
most importantly, just being yourself.

and in fact, today i really felt like myself :)
and im more sure abt wad i wan in future. hoping that everithing just works that way ba!

and some add ons today...
salmon and mushroom baked rice! :)
iced mocha n mc wings meal! (ln made me crave this last night)

ohh..and i found someone whose sense of direction is almost as bad as mine! wahahahha =\

double standards.

a sudden tot that crossed my mind. (yu always uses this term wor)

sometimes we expect pple to tell us the truth about many things. in fact pple who are close to us. we get upset when we dun get the truth outta them even thou not saying the truth doesn't imply that one is lying about it. it's just merely about withholding the truth.

for pple like these, don't u even feel more sian when they are upset cos u kept the truth. but they themselves are doing the same thing to u?

tok abt double standards.

in my opinion, it's about before expecting someone to do the same thing for you, pls make sure that you're doing the same thing.

yup. nothing much ba. just a random tot.

things haven't been goin too well for me.
- superbly stressed abt proj
- implying that im super uncertain of the future
- can't find a job
- some frenships aren't working out too well

ahh well. this ought to be one of my worst holidays ever. sigh.
i havent felt really happy in quite some time.

when will things start to look up?

my bdae? perhaps. but i highly doubt so. especially when results are coming out 2 days before. super argh.

ok, before this post starts turning out to be a super pessimistic one...

yesterday was spent with..
pool, dinner in town and mahjong again. (wahhaa.did i just say that i was getting sick of mj?)

din have much luck ydae. lost abt 4 bucks at the end of xi feng. i was soo damn tired that i din even care abt how much i lost anymore. =
tok abt pool, i din play at all. firstly cos i dun wan the whole world to turn and laff at me. secondly, ok actually i cant think of the 2nd reason. but to sum, it's just that i haven't played in ages(mabbe a yr) and i super sux at pool. and the last time i played i was the subject of laughter of my ex-colleagues. so you get the idea.

yeahh.. haha.

gotta make a trip down to sch AGAIN. haiss...

a super nua sunday for me.

slept for abt 13 hrs. i got a shock when i got up at 2.30 pm when i slept abt 1.30 this morning. *-*'''

spent the entire afternoon watching 2 very nice shows on cable.

巴黎恋人

this show is actually quite light hearted and not as sadd as most korean shows! and the girl's very pretty wor.. :) i havent been following the show and today's about the 3rd time i'm watching it and its the last episode le. still wondering if i should watch the show from the beg since i already know the ending le .but juss says its a nice show... and this is coming from someone who's not even half a tv addict as me ..hehh



the other show was 一号法庭 III.



ok i cant find the part III picture la.. i used to be very addicted to this show in secondary school wor. it was nice rewatching it again. in fact it din even feel that i was rewatching it cos i cant rem all the cases also ba. heh.

i'm so nua nowadays that i cant believe myself.

it's like the whole holiday is about
sleep and more sleep
eat
tvv-ing
onlinee
and mahjong-ing.

gosh, have i become such a boring person .. wahahha

home on a saturday. yawnn.. feeling tired & restless. and nobody's home.

boredd to the max to the power of infinity. argh. hahaha

but friday was a blast i guess :)

met diana in the morning to go for some survey thing. went intl plaza to job hunt but it seems that all the jobs are being filled up.

den we headed to ps to have lunch at iciban sushi. that gal claims that its the best sushi place but hahah i seriously dun feel so at all. =\ i hate the salmon sushi cos its not fresh. and the prices are quite steep as well. i still prefer my sakae sushi, cheap and good :)

shopped at orchard. and i bought mani stuff. havent shopped in ages. and i think it's a good sign i'm recovering to be the old shopaholic me. yayy.. had a great time chatting up with that gal. she's still as chatty as ever. :)

headed home n napped. actually was pretty lazy to get out of the house liao and wanted to sleep till dawn de..haha. but mr boon called and i had no choice but to get up of bed.. cos at least there was somone to acc me! hehh

havent totally recovered from last night's mj. slept a total of 5 hrs onli. haha. that's very little since nowadays i average abt 11 - 12 hrs daily. *-*''''''

mahjong-ed last night. it was 2 slow and frenly games. lost abt 2 plus in all.

n i declare that im kinda sick of mahjong already. an over dose perhaps. heh

well, but i guess the highlight of the day spent with the group was more of the breakfast we had. somehow or the other, i felt it was quite nice to sit down n chat like very old frens ba. u can actually feel how pple have changed over the yrs. for the better in most cases, its all part and parcel of growing up. we all become more mature. =)




things happen for a reason
it all depends on how we handle it

just got up from a nap and shall blog for a while before heading to leo's house for some mahjong again.


these days, i had been very unhappy. i keep having recurring tots that if there's some misudnerstandings that happen no one would stand on my side. i keep having dreams of me tellin the truth but no one believes me.

something's bothering me? perhaps.

but it dawned on me that this would not be the case. i know there may be pple who doubt me. however i'm quite sure there's a handful of pple who would always be standing on my side, trusting that whatever i do is correct.


these are the pple whom are truly my frens.


sick of trying harder and harder each time
it's through tough times that u see for yourself the truest colours in pple.

if there wasn't imperfections in the world,
we wouldnt know what happiness is.

how true.
and now i believe that setbacks in life are meant to teach me to be a better person.


i will get over it.

visited my aunt today at cck. she has become skinnier again. hai. really quite xin suan to see her like that. i hope that things will start lookin up for their family soon.

today i was feeling a little moody and i kinda gave mum the attitude. i felt a little bad afterwards. think ive been bogged down by certain things too much these days. i really feel guilty to take it out on her. things got better later in the evening.

treasure your loved ones.

mabbe its the things that i saw today that made me changed my perspective of life. spent some time tokin to jason ydae and he was telling me how the grp really felt i was very dao last time and i couldnt be bothered to talk to them.

is it circumstances or its really cos ive changed that now i m able to click with them better?

i think it's both bah. im glad things have changed. altho i foresee some tings will change the status quo. i pray and hope that things remain the same. but if it does it's all fated i guess. i can only hope for the best.

in life, just be thankful that you have a few really good frens to call your own. these are the frens that you know will always be there for u no matter wad happens.


some things once lost, cannot be recovered and we should not dwell on it.

life goes on..


those that do not kill me
will only make me stronger.

i wanna watch this show soon. hopefully it's as nice as the new police story. ;)

gosh, i realised i haven't watched a movie in so long that i dun even noe how much are the tickets now. =
i miss salted popcorn..

lalalaa..

oops..im blogging so often that i think it's a serious sign of boredom. i need a job soon. =

this is only the first day.
how many such days do i have to take???

听着自己的心跳 没有规则的跳跃
我安静的在思考 并不想被谁打扰

我们曾紧紧拥抱 却又轻易地放掉
这种感觉很微妙 该怎么说才好

时间分割成对角 停止你对我的好 瓦解我们的依靠

在你离开之后的天空 我像风筝寻一个梦 雨后的天空

是否有放晴后的面容 我静静的望着天空
试着寻找失落的感动 只能用笑容
期待着雨过天晴的彩虹

I finally own the J game CD!

jolin rox! :)



i finally decided to get it after all. and i love the cd! the pictures inside and the cover is just so pretty! just like her man.. happy happy. currently listening to it while blogging worr..

yayy ..

it's bloody hot today but my day was simple yet sweet.

n i think i had a very good sleep last night.
went sch. now im pretty undecided.
one is nice budden mabbe cant take me anymore. and i gotta wait for his answer in 2 weeks. but if i wait that long, i might lose the another one too..
the other sounds confident, budden a little hard to understand but he confirm can take me(that is if i agree asap) but i find him a little hard to communicate.
oh and the one i meet today tot im from china. lucky not from my looks. but when he saw my email. cos i dun have dialect name ma. for once, i feel thankful for tat. no wonder he was so frenly to me :)
okay, im at a loss now. to wait or not to wait. that's the problem.

anyway. after sch i headed to medical library to borrow a book for sis. i have nvr stepped into medicine before and somehow i felt a bit daunted. haha. but i managed to find medical lib! that's an achievement for someone whose direction sense is as bad as me. oh well.

dropped by jus' mum shop for a while. brought fruit tarts but before i could take a few bites. that notti tart fell from my hand . no tarts for me!! :( haha. but well. i wasn't exactly too hungry too. anyway. i had a nice chat with her and she asked me abt the hk trip. i do wan to go. but i think it all depends on whether i can get a job anot. so nothing's confirmed yet.

den i met mum for dinner at ubi. we had some traditional yummy yong tau foo and it was pretty great. some grocery shopping afterwards. ok, quality time with mumm ;) but by the time i lugg the bags back, i was realy tired already=
tired tired day. all i wan to do now is to laze around and njoy the cd! tian kong rox!! :)))



if there's trust, there's no hurt?
or the more trust there is, the more hurt there is?

yayyy.. i finally managed to upload some photos.. ok i noe its sth that is idiot proof.. but i missed out on blogging for quite some time ..

so here goes.. i kop these fotos from ln. haha. courtesy of her wonderful camera phone.. :)

the last day in pgp!


taken in ln's room


my yi yi bu se look.. my dearest room L! :)


my neighbour, ms chen jh


our cluster gate! 07-15.. the 1 is gone thou.. replaced by ln's finger.hahaha..


a very unclear foto. but this is my much treasured 'hk' vieww :)

i've officially moved home. feeling both happy and sad.

spent the past 2 nights in pgp. ktv-ed at kbox with ln ydae. it's been ages since i last went. would have been better if we could go partyworld instead. (clementi pw was fully booked at 9 pm ydae! can't believe it wor =\)

kbox songs are still pretty old. almost abt the same as those i saw when i last went. haha. u get the idea. but anyway. it was still nice singing again. (yes, i think i still havent lost my enthusiasm for it) can't wait to sing jolin's tian kong! =) i conclude that ktv-ing does take away some sianness. good good.

one good thing abt kbox is that the service has become better. amazingly i felt damn welcomed when i reached. the mics are now better too!

i was pretty seh at abt 1 plus. due to the 3 hr sleep i had. altho the pple din chase us out when it was way past our package time. so we left liao. cabbed back and by the time i reached. i concussed immediately. lalala

got up past noon and started to pack my remaining things, awaiting room inspection. suddenly felt very yi yi bu she.

im gonna miss..
studying at the lounge
the yellow sofas n tv room
the frens
the cute lil basin in my room
my nicey 'hongkong' night view
the asian cusine n claypot stall
the lil transponder
mabbe even the dumb lifts. haha
and of cos
my funny neighbour. ms chen jiahui
okay, and mabbe in some ways, the freedom too heh.

bye bye pgpp.. bye bye room L(my initial!=))
all good things must come to an end
what matters are the memories that stay forever. :)


however, back at home, i have
my family!
the aircon!
cable telly
cleaner toilets..
my piglet mogu
my mummy to disturb everynight
traditional chinese tea everynight!
home cooked food!
and being at home makes communication with jus easier :)
and now i have my lappy with me always liao

yayy..


just got back from zi char dinner.. mother's day celebration..

mothers are the most wei da pple on earth

ydae when i was at ktv..mum msged me.
she told me to njoy my last night stay in hostel. and told me that if there's a need den stay next semester.

how sweet is that. my mum really understands me
happy mother's day to mummy!
stay happy and healthy always =)

seems like every sunday is a celebration for my family
there's no place sweeter than home :)


some shout outs..

to mrs chou:
one day you will meet the right person at the right time :)

to juss:
jia you for tmrw! i believe u can make it de :)

to yuuu :
(if you read this before your trip)
have a great time! but take lotsa care too kae ..heh



this is the best way out.

i just got up from a 3 hr 'sleep'. it's in inverted commas cos i din sleep last night. and this 3 hrs were supposed to make up for it.

3 hrs!??! after not sleepin the entire night. i just feel too awake to fall asleep again.

sidenote: thus, this blog is going to be very grumpy and complainy(if there's such a word) cos its coming from me who din have a good sleep. so if u think u cant take it. pls leave.

just let me grumble abit.

played overnight mahjong last night.

i hesitated to go at first. but well. after some tots, mabbe i shouldnt discredit some of my frens. especially ln was damn sweet and wanted to acc me there when in the end we din ktv-ed.

first game. it was alright. luck seemed pretty on my side and i won a little.

2nd game. my luck was a bit gone. i almost had to bao one game. budden leo was nice enuf to let me off. haha.

'3rd game'. played a little bit. this time nvr win money. just to pass time so i can wait till after 6 to get the train. oh well. i think u nvr see me and ln any fiercer when playing mj before. why?

i have no qualms abt pple learning to play mj. everyone starts off from somewhere. but dun ever throw your tiles like someone owes u a living.

ok, if you still wanna do it. i can accept. we are all different in our ways. that's y some pple can get along well with others and some cannot.

BUT. one thing i hate in mj is. whether you play for money, for fun or wad not.

worse still if its for fun. do u all noe cheating is not allowed?

but ok, mabbe none of the above concerns me.

but my last pt is. DUN EVER DOUBT ME.

tat's wad happens when u put 2 pple who cant get along together on a mj table. 2 wrongs doesnt make 1 right.

did i mention i love mj a lot? (ok, like who reads this blog and doesnt noe)
BUT.
i dun play it for the sake of winning money(in fact i lose most of the time)

i dun even give a super black face when i lose over 20 bucks when i play 10cent 20 cents(at the beg)

like some of my frens noe. i dun mind losing money as long as my craving for mahjong has been satisfied. in life, you win some u lose some.

but pls, there are ethics involved!

ok, this is abt all i wanna grumble. if you r reading this line now. it means that either you are truly a fren. or you're just too bored!! hahaha



it could well be a misunderstanding.
but in some ways, i dun feel like bothering.

wth.

im damn pissed.

today was originally a fruitful day for me.

went to sch. met prof.
sweetie sis helped me moved home in a cab.
had tuition. my last lesson.
dinner and continued unpacking. and im almost done!
had a nice and long fone call. a good break from the week

but no..

my nice little day has to be spoilt.
look, its onli pple who are deemed close to me who can actually spoil my day. the rest i dun give a damn.
well, so be honoured that u made me pissed tonight? if you wanna be, i cant help it too.
there's always a tolerance level for everione. once, twice, thrice i can still accept.
the fourth time, the frenship's gone down the drain.

sorry to even make it sound serious.
but do u ever noe what is appreciation?


pisssed. but i made a promise to myself that once i blogged it out, i shall not let myself be affected anymore.

im out.

the post exam period has been pretty boring. no no im not complaining. it's just that within myself i think i have lost the energy and mood to party.

something's wrong with me? perhaps. or mabbe it's just that im getting older.

ive been thinking alot and i think i haven't gotten over wad happened 3 weeks ago. yah. ive been tokin to pple abt it. and i noe its only within me to make a difference. but somehow altho i appear cheery(ok most of the time) , crapp and joke like usual. it's all different now. deep down inside, i think im not tat cheery at all.

life's so unpredictable.

these days my mum havent been in a good mood. prob due to work. i know she's stressed and sometimes when she's at home. she pick at me for no reason. i can tolerate that. i tried to control within me so that i dun burst at her. it's not good to talk back. budden it doesnt feel gd seeing her like that. i noe other family affairs are affecting her. a huge burden on her now. i hope things gets better.

prob why i loook so sian when im out with pple. those who got it. i seriously apologise. or those who havent been able to stand me these days. i need some time.

you prob noe im not myself when i dun love shopping as much as before. or rather. i dun buy a single thing when im out.

things will get better. and so, i hope.

p.s : at this pt in time. im glad that not many pple know my blog. this blog perhaps is onli opened to pple who can stand my complains. and accept me for who i am.

this is my blog. and i sae wad i want.

i hate the word wadever.

there's only two things i sae when im pissed.

wadever.
ok fine.

ok the less serious ones. hahaha.. the more ones u wun wan to noe. hahaha.

town-ed today. with qiuru, yinghui and jilei. my girl frens in jc. the pple who made my 2 yrs less miserable. we had sakae sushi .. and all i had was raw salmon. yumms.. i love it. hung around sakae for quite some time..before we decided to do some shopping. and amazingly. i wasn't the least gian. i think i lost my passion for shopping. sad to say i think i was just merely accompanying them throughout. until qr commented " you like ren zai xin bu zai" oops.. felt bad. budden i cant help it..mabbe i looked too sians.. i have mani things on my mind ok.hahaa. den we went to had waffles at gelare.. yay! half priced waffles rox! hahaha..

okay later on they had other plans for the night. so i felt sian abt goin home for dinner. worse still i realised that i had no dinner at home and no one was at home. so i had dabao-ed mac in front of the tv. argh...

i hate to be lonely.

anyway..today on the bus a sudden tot came to me. i think that the most important trademark of a guy is his gentlemanliness. (if there's such a word) what's the pt if u look so smart in shirt tie and pants when u have zero gentlemanliness. just today sucha guy beat me to board the bus first. super diao. and er xin.

for goodness sake, dun wear so nice when u cant act like a man.

haha im just in a pissed mood. and in a dilemna too..

having no choice kills u
so does have many choices.

suddenly feel very sian now.

its my over-sensitivity reacting again. argh..

i just hate such situations. i thought u knew.

im out. off to sleep.. off to escapism.

boring old monday wor..

i wished i was studying instead (muahaha..did anyone just believe that!? of cos im kidding larh)

stayed and nuaed and lazed at home the entire day. hahah.. switching between channels on cable .surfed and majorly downloading songs.. and jolin's tian kong rox!! =) as well as vivian's hao xiang ni.. they are currently on repeat mode on my playlist. hahaa.. i have a chong dong to buy jolin's cd. mabbe tmrw bahh.. heh

today was on the lookout for proj sups. managed to find a few and sent emails to them. this particularly one came back with a qs. "What's your cap?" after telling me to meet him or sth. i totally sian diao.. although i heard that it's a common qs. i nvr felt so paiseh abt telling pple my cap before de lor. i think from now on. next semester onwards. i will have to live on a lower self esteem. diaoz~

if everyone on earth was perfect, no one would appreciate any one :)

me and mahjong.

wah this is an abrupt change. lately, me n mj have been inseparable. haha. its like if u see mj tiles u see me :) haha ok mabbe not that exaggerated yet ok.. but almost there. so much so that im almost not gian shopping anymore. hahaa. supposed to meet the girls in town tmrw.. budden i dun feel that kinda happiness than if u asked me to play mj..haha.. (even after not town-ing for ages) oops..not that im not gian to meet up with them. .in fact that's the only thing that's keeping me from agreein to play mj tmrw. wahahha. i think mabbe next time i shld sleep with a mj set beneath my pillow wor. den i dream of fa cai , hong zhong and bai ban everynight. hahaha..

speaking of which, last night i dreamt that i got the dbs internship. lovely dream. too bad when i woke up , im back to reality. to the world no one wans me..haha.. okay i hope to find an internship or job soon..wish me luck ok. i dun wanna rot the 3 mths away. =)

happy birthday dad! =)

yayy.. happy day again.

last night i had some 'misunderstanding' with a fren. but we sorta 'trashed' things out and i realised how important communication really is. in everything. relationships, frenships and even within the family. i wonder how many times i let slip frenships cos there were unhappiness that were never solved. but wadever the case. i think talking things out do work. mabbe not all the time. but at least MOST of the time bah.

back to today. (i love digressing.. heh) today's labour day aka dad's bdae.

basically this sums my day.
tuition.
long nap.
parkway with sis.
bought 2 imported cds. cyndi and twins. wanted to buy jolin's one originally. but i decided that i shld get the original one. hahaa.. cos im beginning to like her more..especially so for her braveness. but that wuld have to wait. haha. cos im quite broke now.
and a sumptuous dinner.
chilli crab. curry fish head. sushi. otak.
icecream cake. chocolate pudding and watermelon.
basically u get the idea. multiple yummms. :)

hoping that my daddy stays healthy and happy always.

there's nothing better on earth than your family. i love my family! =)

okay, im out!.. time to sing bdae song! yayy..