I'm praying

that everything will go very well for you.

加油! c",)

keeping my fingers crossed
and wishing you the very best.

26th Jun

3 pple celebrate their bdae today!!

happy birthday to mummy! :)

we celebrated mum's bdae at ecp over a seafood dinner. feeling real bloated now.

and

happy birthday to jia
happy birthday to a friend whom i wonder if we're still really friends.
(well, the above 2 will prob never ever read this, but anyways)

i've come to realise that when i'm sick,eating medicine makes me more sickand when i stop the medication, i'll get well. haha. that's how weird. but this has proved true for the past few times.

mabbe there's sth wrong with my body system. =/ wahhaa.

home on a saturday night. why?

cos i have to work tmrw at 9 am. wahaha. kinda no life but well, i just want to earn more money before i start to slack for the rest of the hols again.

ohh.. had my tuition pay todaY! finally i can look forward to double the pay from next week onwards. hehs :)

went to 'whack' the mango sale ydae with friends at work. haha it's in inverted commas cos i tot i could whack but i was a bit put off by the long q outside the shop. yes, of cos i know there are bound to be crowds at such sales. but i din expect to see so many pple. it was like everything's free wor. ahh.. singaporeans...(oh wait, i'm also one of them)

ohh, saw many frens inside wor, haha jess, cheryl and pl. wahaha. so qiao :) and so, after some squeezing and trying on. i got myself one top. pathetic. haha. but i'm goin back soon. wahahha. mabbe when the crowd dies off.

went to meet ln in town after that. and we went for a ktv session :) haha, it was nice meeting her again. and ln issen lau niang-ly anymore. hahaha. well, i'm talking more abt the outlook la, haha, somehow there's a different aura abt her. clad in working clothes. heh.budden when we were inside the room i realised that she's still pretty much the ln i knew. wahaha. back to those days when we go ktv alone. heh.

the bestest of lns :)

well.. haha the ktv bill came up to a shocking total of 81 bucks. haha 40 bucks each person for 4 hrs of singing. wahha. bloody ex la. the most expensive ktv session i ever went to. wahha. but partyworld is pretty diff now. they seemed to have revamped the whole database and finding songs is not such a hassle anymore! haha. i'm goin to condemn a particular kbox liaos. heh. or did i already condemn it? wahhaha. partyworld rox! heh. they have many new songs liao, including tian kong and hao xiang ni!! very very nice indeed.

cabbed home laters. and concussed after a shower. got up early for tuition and i declare sleep is nvr enuf if i dun get 12 hrs. wahhaa.

i want my 12 hrs of sleep. haha. ok, that will come after i earn enuf :)

happy!!
a happy 23rd indeed :)

i managed to catch initial D today!

wahaha, work ended early unexpectedly. and thanks to boon we managed to get ticks for it!!

so after a dinner of hokkien mee that i could barely finish cos i was so excited and din want to miss the show. we started eating at 7.10 pm and the show was at 7.30 pm lor. some pple kept telling me its ok to miss the first part. *tsk tsk.

so in the end i missed the first 10 mins!!! argh.. i'm goin to watch the show again lor. cos everything just feels so incomplete!!

well, anyway, the show is good! no matter wad pple say wor. definitely better than most chinese shows and definitely worth watchin in the theatres wor!

so, go watch go watch!!

the car drifting techniques involved were damn good even thou i tot i wouldnt appreciate them. hehs. and jay fits the role of takumi. he's as natural as he is ma. well, was quite excited to see the rest act, but it was actually quite disappointing. i can't even remember wad's shawn yue's name in the show.

the show ended pretty abruptly too. i dun actually see the pt of the jap actress' role. but well, it's supposed to follow the anime. so mabe i should watch it soon.

going to bed oredi. cos i'm working at 9 tomorrow.. *yawnss

but before i go.. here's a picture of jay!


nice floral shirt wor

yay..

i got my new ipod shuffle today!

i've got a new best fren on the way to work :)

down with flu again. i'm so weak recently.

gonna pop 2 panadols before bed.

=(


i do feel like giving in at times.
but somehow i tell myself
i shouldnt give up the hard work.
nobody said this road was easy.
but i chose it.
and so i live it.

somehow, i'm not as strong as i thought i would be.

struggling to stay afloat is really torturous.

it's like i dunno the real me.

i just keep chanting i will survive.

and hopefully i would.

last night i had a really bad dream. in fact it was so real that when i got up, i was glad it was just a dream.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx


anyway, got up early to drive my mummy to work! heh. yes, uncle lent me the car today again wor.

yup, and in the car he was telling me a lot of things abt life. and one phrase that he kept repeating was

"before you do anything, always think of your loved ones"

referring to the body parts murder.

yes, i think it's very true. after all, ultimately you do pay for your actions, but your family members are the one who pay for your actions indefinitely.

well, in any case, i'm in no position to comment too much on it. but just my 2 cents worth.

last night i was on a close to 5 hr phone call. *-*''''''

it's been ages since i had such chats on the fone, much less such a long call :)

a lot of truth was spoken, and a lot of the past were being mentioned. the past that seemed so long ago to me. but truthfulness is good. i like.

anyway. just one thing to say,

as much as i think fate plays a part. it's still up to us to work towards what we want. and i definitely dun regret the past cos i'm loving the present. :)

for the next 3 weeks i'll be really busy i guess. cos' i finally found a job.

and i might be losing touch with the 'real world' cos' my working hrs are really weird. either 7am - 3 pm or 3 pm - 11pm. but i'm expecting myself to be doing the latter shift more often.

and what's more i can't even say TGIF.

cos i gotta work on the weekends. saturdays wuld be even longer for me. since i have tuition in the mornings.

but whatever, it is. having a job keeps my mind off things, less pple will hear that i'm bored like 3/4 of the time, and well. it's only for 3 weeks. after that i'm still goin to have a good break! =)

and it's about meeting new friends and establishing contacts again. plus the pantry has complimentary drinks! heh. (ok, this is coming from someone who had to pay 10 cents for drinks last time at cb ma)

oh and i hope i still have a little time for this!




things seemed to have changed much for the past 1 week.

and i'm very thankful for the little smses that i got asking me about my grandpa. well, it may be a small action, but taking time off your schedules to show that little concern for me, i really appreciate :)

personally, i think i seemed to have changed my outlook of things. i think i'm starting to take things less to heart, and not many things can affect me that much le.

ohh, and happy fathers' day to my daddy! :)

dinner was a simple affair. in the comfort of our home. but what matters is not the food but the company :)

i wish for happiness & health for my loved ones always

grandpa's in hospital again =(

i'm feeling worried all over again.

my heart skips a beat when the telephone rings at home.

i pray hard that he will get well soon enough again!



i just need to be stronger

omg.

highlight of the day:
yu gets to go for the initial D press conference!!

(lau niang!!!)

=(

so good. while i can only sit and wait for 23rd jun!!!

slacked at home the entire day. i'm a little sick of going out. spent all my time in front of the telly, watching ALL IN vcds , 陀枪师姐 IV and the jade show on cable.

then swept the floor and packed my room
(yes, you din see wrongly wor :D)

my room has been in a mess since i got back from pgp that's like 1.5 mths ago. haha. finally neater now :)



i can't stand it when some pple i try to shrug off keep reappearing in my life. why do i keep hearing her name. bloody pissed.

test my patience any further.

	Friend Bear You are everyone's ideal friend because you are sincere and genuinely kind. Sometimes you worry about your friends' problems so much, you forget about your own responsibilities, which can get you into trouble. For you, it's the little things that really count. You also happen to be the main driver of the Cloud Car. No speeding!
Take the Which Care Bear Are You? Quiz!

the part in bold is really true!

friendship is a simple thing,
but when people start to make it complicated
the friendship turns ugly.

it seems that i havent been home on sat at this time for a long while.someone said i went into hibernation. *-*'''''

it feels good to be home early after so many days of hanging out. haha.

just some updatess..

thursday
i did something i havent did in a long long time.












i did foot reflexology!

a few days back i read an entry on xiaxue's blog which introduced the various neighbourhood shops in my frenly neighbourhood marine parade new town. heh. and among which many shops i nvr knew existed.

so today, me and yu met up at parkway and we had an idea to go for the foot reflexology thingy. that apparently had some promotion during the GSS.

so the whole session consisted of

a 10-15 mins foot bath


yes, those are my feet!


me and my other wan

and 40 mins of foot reflexology which was a little pain and ticklish but bearable for me. mabbe such things to me are a form of luxury so i dun feel the pain. wahhaha :) mabbe i'm just too free so i start to wan to try new things.

among which one of them includes cutting my hair short. it's getting so long now that i find it irritating in the sweltering heat. yucks. but somehow i know i will regret the decision. =
and dinner was at taiwan porridge. i love eating at oasis. the night view is 2nd best after fullerton's. :)

friday
met up with the citibank colleagues for lunch at ajisen. haven't met them since the last holidays and it was all good. even my sup gave face and came down too. in fact the whole dept came down and had lunch tog. so touched wor :)

and they kept telling me thanks for coming down to meet them. it's like i tot i shld be the one to say thank you wor. *-*''''' somehow i missed working there. altho when i was there, i always complain abt the work and late nights. but the company's all great. the pple are nice. thou the work issen. i guess we only learn how to treasure things when it's gone.

somehow part of me wished that i had accepted the offer. but on personal stands, i think hnrs will do me some good. and since i've set on this path, i shouldn't regret my decision. yup

today
finally had tuition in the morning after one week break. i seem to click better with the gal now. and she's opening up more too! that's good.

went down to suntec for a mini post-bdae celebration for roger. hmm, the turn out wasnt as good as expected but we procceeded for a mahjong session afterwards. :)

yes mahjong agaiN!

i was a little tired actually, since i got up pretty early.

but the heat did make me want to sit down comfortable for mahjong instead of walking around.

and today, lady luck din shine on me. i lost 25 bucks!! :( only gaming one san tai in the ENTIRE game. that's how suay i was.

but like i always say, mahjong is in the name of fun.

home sweet home after that, sam n boon were nice enuf to send me home first in a cab. :)

ohh, before i end, just wanna say,


I LOVE MY FONE!!!

so everybody can stop saying my fone is lousy!! *glares at boon

lalalaa =)

imagine this scenario:

you and a fren got stranded on an island. and the reason why you got stranded on the island is cos of her. (mabbbe let's say she was the navigator and she lost her way so both of u got stranded). somehow or the other, you two have been surviving very well on the island TOGETHER. note the keyword is together. somehow or the other, one fine day, this boat came along and found both of you. but there's only one person who can go on the boat. you urself decide that you wouldn't leave without her. but guess wad, she left without you.

betrayal?

this is to me, a severe form of disappointment that I wouldnt be able to get over.

my idea is this: if both of us are set out to walk this path together, den by hook or by crook, we shouldn't leave each other behind. get the idea?

those who dun duno wad frenship is.

being angry with someone is ok. cos it helps u to curb ur feelings. but being disappointed is a feeling that i cant rid myself of. period.

moving on to happier stuff.

mahjong-ed at roger's house today. it was kinda a last min decision. and i'm surprised the pple involved are so ons abt it. i like. =D

won 10 bucks. heh.

roger was nice enuf to agree to my craving of sambal stingray.. yay!! yes, i had a craving for it again this morning. and we went 2 blk 85! bak chor mee, stingray and cockles.. triple yumss. =P

had a talk after dinner and i realised how much some of the ideas he had were the same as mine. i could almost relate to it. wahhaa..



today, i truly understood the meaning of frenship.

tireddd..

think i havent really shopped in ages.

towned with sis today. we went to bioskin for facial.

and woah, the place is like a mini hotel. i felt that i could sleep in the toilet. wanted to snap some fotos budden i was paiseh to act like some sua ku.

managed to steal some shoots while waiting for my sis to finish.


this is sorta the waiting area with a million and one different types of magazines plus a flat screen samsung tv.


the whole place had artificial plants of these sort.

well actually there was also a mini man made pond. that i din hav ethe chance to take a foto of.

well the facial was great. even better considering the fact that i din pay a cent. ok i did eventually. paid 38 bucks for some cream i chose to add. other than that the facial was basically free :)

dined at scott's food court . had teppanyaki that sux. hahaa. it looked so good in the pic. liar liar.

so obviously we weren't full enuf. so we went to marche for our 2nd dinner! hahhaa. such gluttons we are. or rather it was me.

so we just ate sambal stingray and salmon sashimi :) my craving for stingray last night has been satisfied. except that the chilli wasnt good enuf! i wan to eat at newton soon!!

shopped around laters. sis got me a belated bdae present from pretty fit.



and i'm loving it.

she also bought another pair for herself that i believei can kop to wear too. so we managed to get the vip card. lookin forward to more shoes from pretty fit! the heels are just so nice..hehh..

somehow my day din end off on a good note. i was washing my chain + pendant that my aunt gave me on my 21st. it's supposed to be a symbol of good luck. i took it off during the facial earlier in the day. i think its fated. i should have wore it back straight away. dun ask me why i didn't

den somehow the pendant slipped off my fingers and fell into the sink hole. argh. and i was too slow to catch it back. sigh.. i m really sadd wor =(

is that a symbol that sth bad will happen?


=(

the one about the weekend

sat was a reeli long day.

had bbq at leo's place. somehow or the other, i was led into thinking that it was sorta a get together before he goes into NS.

but somehow or the other, when i came out of the toilet the lights suddenly went out. and before i could have enuf reaction to find out wad happened, mingjie came with a cake towards me :)

aww.. it was really sweet ba. at least when i least expected it.

oh and the cake had 6 large candles on it... i'm actually 60 yrs old *-*'''''''

thanks guys :)


the famous gambling table at leo's house. i play mj there more often than anywhere else. *-*'''

haha, but somehow the niceness doesnt last.. and they made me sing the eng and chinese bdae songs on my own. omg and i really looked dumb. and laters mj smashed my face into a small piece of cake. or rather, the piece of cake was smashed into my face. wahhaha.

(lucky i had no pimples after that)

wanted to leave for home de cos i apparently got sick of mj. budden somehow or the other, i was convinced to stay on for more mj. (somehow i think i cant rid myself of the title of mj addict. haha)

wahhahaa. but i was a little too seh already. shared a seat with sam and we won 7 bucks each! :)

came home at 6 am and slept till 4 plus . and spent the rest of my sunday rotting and watching cable telly.

going for a facial at bioskin soon! i got some free voucher for my bdae. awww .. cool :)

Date: 03 Jun 05

Venue: Sakae Sushi @ TM



our salmon feast :) yuu treated me!



the 2 wans
the 2 salmon addicts
the 2 tkgians :)

i'm officially 22.

sidenote: this is goin to be a long post ahead. so bear with me ok. it's not everyday when it's my bdae

n i felt like a princess yesterday and today :)

the days were simple yet i was happy

simplicity is bliss..

the following made me smile c",)
* marche treat from chin ydae.
i indulged in salmon sashimi. it's so heavenly. and ya. the salmon at marche beats those at the sushi bars anytime. lalalala

* my first sms at the stroke of 12.
came from none other than ln. thanks to my the 'other half' of a lau niang :) . ur sms did touched me wor..

* the call i got at some time past 12
thanks for the effort mr yap :) u really did surprised me..

* and of cos the other sms i valued was from booney
(altho he did remind me of some unhappy things) but thanks dude :)

ok, there were others who msged me which i also appreciated :)

sidenote: did i mention that i have this thing for pple who takes the effort to msg me after 12? to me, it's just an indication that the person actually took the effort to rem and msg/call at/after midnight. cos i usually do such things to pple whom i value and are important to some extent to me

moving on..

i love the excitement and anticipation of home deliveries! (not pizza or kfc, but things like flowers,cakes etc)

*had 2 pleasant surprises when i got up this morning
the first was a birthday parcel all the way from jus in france :)


it consisted of a boquet of pink flowers,


a teddy bear and


a balloon!

it was the balloon which surprised me actually. i tot i saw wrongly when i got up. my mum accepted the delivery when i was asleep.

the 2nd one was actually a bouquet of flowers from yuu :)


seriously speaking, although i already knew there was going to be a delivery from her, i was still pretty much touched.

and i nvr had flowers from a gal before..hehh..u're the first, gal!

*my 2 pretty huge presents

both from jus:)

first is my new fone , a nokia 7270.



i'm loving it. haha. flip fones are cool!

2nd are my first 2 pairs of earrings from tianpo




and i just wore this today!

*my birthday cake from sis


check out the mangoes..it's really very yumms. :)

*my simple dinner at ding tai fung

yeah.. i very sua ku, just realised today that there's a new ding tai fung at tampines mall! no need to queue a million yrs at paragon anymore lor. although there was also a q at tm.

however, i got a little too sick from the different baos. cos after all, they have more or less the same fillings

* my younger cousin gave me a very cute gift.



*-*''''''

this is how cute she is la. she always makes the effort to buy little gifts for our bdaes. it's really sweet mans :) i broke into smiles when she gave it to me.

my day would have ended off perfectly if there was some ktv. plus kbox has ladies night on thurs. which means i dun have to pay any cover charges! but i think it's not meant to be.

i dun deny that there were some disappointments in my day. but mabbe such disappointments happen so frequently so that you will get immuned to them.

my bdae always has to have disappointments of the same kind.

the day is ending and happy birthday to myself once again.hehh :)

when i say i dun care, mabbe i really care a lot after all.

feeling upset. when i keep things to myself all the time, pple think i dun flare up that easily. but smts i have my limits too. some things just cant wait and i dun like waiting. things like that become even worse when they are coming from ur family. argh

ohh welll.

enuf of that.

results yesterday. i did better than i expected. but i guess human beings are nvr much satisfied. there's always a i-could-have-done-better thing.

but thanks to the 2 pple who helped me check my results. why were there 2?
cos one helped me checked it online. the other helped me read it from sms from the first.
wahhaa. yesh.that's how badly i tot i wuld have done.

thou i shld be happy abt the results, i can't help but feel stressness abt hnrs or graduating. this is cos now my aims have changed ba.

human beings have an insatiable appetite.

enuf said

but i've decided for the final time that i will be doing my honours.

i noe mani pple have been listening to me yak on and on abt my dilemna. ur kindness have all been felt. :) i noe that ultimately wadever decision i made shld just concern myself. but im still thankful for all the listening ears and eyes.

now that i've decided, i hope that things will just get better for me :)

like jus says, it's the start of a new month. may has been a bad month for me. and i hope jun can be better :) cos i have always loved the month of june.


the impossible will become possible
if we have more faith.