fears ... ...

mahjong-ed today. simply wasnt in the mood. my mind was perhaps somewhere far far away. lost eventually but not much.

today made me feel that i really worry too much.

first, grandpa's in ICU.

yeah, for such things i know it's better to remain optimistic.

ahh well. this is typical of me. worrying abt things like if the lift door will close on me when i enter the lift or being scared of a cat brushing against my leg.

yes, such things sound stupid to most.

on the way home just now in roger's car, there was a very bad jam allthe way to my house. i felt damn bad abt it. cos they were supposed to go play pool.

and when approaching my house, we realised there was a major accident. suddenly my tots ran wild cos earlier on i msged my mum and she din reply me which was unusual.

i was damn worried all the way back. altho i din show it.

when i exited from the lift and saw that my front door wasnt latched properly. for the first time, i was freaking happy. cos that's characteristic of my daddy.

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yeah, mabbe i think too much and worry too much abt unneccesary stuff which usually turned out to b false alarms.

feeling really incoherent.

i should go sleep soon.

...

everytime i'm up so early on a sat morn and still at home,

it has to be cos i kena duaed by my tuition kid agaiN!!!

*screams.

but on a happier note,
there's a mahjong session later!

c",)

the island ... ...


back from a friends' chalet ydae. stayed for a night.

played lotsa mahjong cards. 30 60 cents this time without change. *faints. think we are mad. but surprisingly mj cards can be quite fun toO! not forgetting the fact that i won 27 bucks. wooohooo ...

me and juss went earlier to suntan. havent soaked in the sun for soo longg. it was all great. mr sun played hide and seeek with us quite a lot. but i think i managed to get a little tanned. my arms are aching from the peel. i said a little cos i really think its abt 1000% hard for me to get tanned.

this brings me to the pt that i wanna bring across. it seems that 2 scenarios are possible.
(1) if you were very tanned in your younger years, now you're very fair.
(2) if you were very fair in your younger years, you are now very tanned.

of cos i belong to the 1st category. no prizes for guessing it ar. so far no one has disproved my law as yet. :)


[continuing the above post from ydae cos i went to watch superstar+ results]

anyway. let's divert a bit. the stupid superstar results made me so pissed.

shan't say much. just that im disappointed with the male contestants results. haha it's kinda obvious.
on the other hand, glad that the 2 that i voted kelly and kelvin are in!!

ok, back to sentosa. so i finally ate at sakae @ siloso.

well, the food wasnt that great at all. mabbe cos they are on an island separated from mainland so they dun get a fresh supply of sashimi? that's wad i think la.

but the environment was great.

we ate so much. and the total bill came to 45 bucks plus. u get the idea.

part of what we had.

check out the difference in amt of wasabi. the right one is juss'.

this is one of the few times when i dined jap with juss. somehow since he's back, our taste in many things including food seems to b more common.

i rem that when we used to eat sushi, he's always eating the ebi ones. or the rest of the cooked ones. but now he goes for salmon sushi and sashimi too. and of cos, he puts more wasabi den me! this is really cool. after all, im a salmon addict. :)

xxxxx

trust is a wonderful thing.
believing in it again
makes me feel like a better person

it's trust all over again

new lease of life

today i did something i havent done in say 3 yrs or more.

it's something that needs a lot of courage too. and after so much thought,

i finally did it!!!

guess what.

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i cut my hair short!

ok, probably not many pple can understand why im so excited abt it. but i just am.

today i was walking around with juss and i suddenly said mabbe i should do sth exciting like cutting my hair short. and amazingly he asked me to do it!

that is pretty amazing. coming from an ah pek like him! :D

but yah, so that's probably where i got my courage from. plus im really very sians of long hair and the amt of time it takes to dry it.

now my hair is much more manageable. takes less time to dry and i can save on shampoO!

and i tried this new saloon that juss' mum reccomended me. the service was soo damn good, considering the fact that the outlook of the saloon wasnt too inviting.

the hair cut was cheap. the wash was so damn shuang and they even massaged my shoulders. the boss cut my hair very meticulously. it took so damn long and i am very pleased with it.

at least for now. hopefully my hair dun go way out of hand when i wake up from bed tomorrow.

*prays hard*

im still so excited abt my hair that it's been my topic since i came home.

yayyyy..

brain ruling the heart...

it's sunday night again.

went to ecp to cycle today with juss. been a long time since we had a chance to. cycled for abt 1 hr den dropped by at the food centre to get 2 curry puffs, chin chow and soya bean drinks.

so much for the exercise. =/

den we cycled back for another 0.5 hrs back to the bicycle rental shop.

that was my simple sunday. :D

back home, i dunno why i suddenly feel damn stressed.

im at my low self esteem level again. why why why ..mabbe it's lack of confidence to face whatever challenges there will be.

i hope i dun regret my decisions.

mabbe i just have to keep chanting:
i can do it. i can do it.

i really hope i can.

the monster called C-O-R-S.

haiss.

got up at 12 today only to realise halfway thru lunch that round 0 opens today. this just proves that im losing track of precious time. havent even decided what breadth modules to take mans. i'm getting blurrer.

luckily there was cheryl :) (thanks gal!)

yups. modules crap aren't that settled actually. cos it depends on the stupid bidding system that i dread.

2 more semesters and im outta nus.

i can't wait!!

*prays that i can safely get my modules this time*

just round 0 and i miss ln's presence in school! hehs. there's no one to discuss bidding strategys anymore mans. =/ (alright, we're the 2 kiasu ones)

less friends in school but hopefully my last yr in nus will still be memorable :D

more retail therapy today. it made me less stressed.

starting to get new pens and stationery for school! mabbe a new pencil case soon too! yeah, it's in me that i need to buy a new pencil case each sem. it makes me look forward to school more. bleahs.

i like being happy!


quote of the day:
the sun is hot and the moon is cold



you're the reason i wake up with a smile everyday :)

can i have more than 24 hrs each day?

days passed me by like seconds. i practically lost count of the dates.

walked a lot today. and i must really recommend charles and keith heels. wore my new pair to shop today and it didnt give me a single problem thou we walked so much today. they are really cheap and good mans. so far my 3 pairs din give me any problems =)

was at levi's today. haven't shopped there for ages. got myself a new pair of jeans compliments of jus. it was actually the new square cut series that has a tag but doesnt tell u the size of ur jeans. heh, i like, for obvious reasons. lalala. and jus got for himself a pair of jeans and 2 plain tshirts.

also caught this show today.


tickets were redemmed using the ST cut out coupons that my sis told me about. apparently it's cathy's 70th bdae so they were giving out free tickets the entire day today. but we only managed to get tickets for tat particular show.

well, it wasnt a too bad show. but abit too draggy for a jap show. it was like 2.5 hrs. =/ but well, it's free anyways. so no complains.

wanted to have some deserts at nydc after the show. but we were lookin out for available sofa seats when i saw ln! =) so qiao. in fact i seldom ever see her outside without plans to meet each other.or almost never ever.

in the end, we settled for sticky chewy chocolate sundae at swensen's. yummss. i had most of it to myself while juss drank his tea.

home sweet home then.

xxxxxxx

the weekend past me like a blast too.

my weekend is basically summed up by

x war of the worlds!
have been wanting to watch this show for a long time but somehow no chance too. it wasn't as bad as i expected actually. mabbe cos it wasn't that much of a war show after all. if it was, it would have bored me to tears. hehs.

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x dinner at koo kee dumpling house
i highly reccomend this place actually. although not too sure of the branches, but there's one at parkway and one opposite bugis junction. the prices are reasonable and in fact the xiao long baos are much much better than crystal jade's or even ding tai fung. and i loved the french beans and celery with prawns. i love celery! hehs.

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x supper at 85.
sambal stingray and lala at fengshan market. i simply love stingrays man. i always have a craving for them. yumss.

anyway, company was with 3 ah peks who sought entertainment in beer. and i really hate beer.

these are roger, juss and jason.

roger wasnt smiling and showing his teeth in this foto so i said must take again.

but he's still not smiling. *-*'''''

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x ktv at kbox

it was juss' suggestion to go ktv.(a miracle!) it was actually quite good cos the mics at parkway improved and they have updated songs including tian kong!

xxxxxxx

x overnight mahjong
yeah, havent really stayed overnight for mj in some time. but i kinda got quite sick of it halfway thru. mabbe cos i seemed to be on a losing streak. or mabbe cos of other reasons. i duno. but well. i was quite seh at the end of the 1st game.

then i slept 4 hrs and went for tuition the next day and i was practically dozing off when my tuition kid had no more questions. it was really damn torturous.

i should really stay away from overnight mahjong for a long time. it drains my energy mans.

xxxxxxx

feeling really tired at the end of this really long post. time for bed.

congratulations!

x the end x

welcome back hero

the day was smashingly great.

need i say more?

a picture says a thousand words. =)

abilities vs attributes

went on a mega shopping spree today. haven't shopped so much in a long while and everything's like on sale.

mango has further reductions again!

i told myself i wun step in again 2 weeks back, but alas, i went in today again. cos i couldnt resist the 70% reductions.

some stuff i wanted to buy dropped from 19 to 9 bucks.

so what else was i waiting for right? hahaha.

retail therapy.

it always works on me =)

ahh well, back to the the topic. today was one of those few days i manage to sit down and watch project superstar. i always look forward to it. cos i feel that the standard of the contestants are way way above singapore idol's. mabbe cos i dun really listen to english songs

but any of those contestants way back before the quarter finals can beat a particular idol finalist hands down. (names not mentioned cos' it's sensitive. hehs, i duno when his supporters may google his name and find it here wor)

well, but today, the standard of the contestants disappointed me greatly. except for this particular guy called weilian aka kelvin. i'm sure most pple know him. he's actually the one who has lost his sense of sight.

since the first time i saw him singing i believe, i think i was pretty touched by his voice. in particular, mabbe cos i love the song. but well, that was when i first sms to vote for him.

well, anyway, i can't decide why but mabbe it's cos of his courage that i admire him.it's not an easy task standing in front of the audience to sing. let alone if u cant see their expressions. it's definitely taunting.

so mabbe it's admiration that led me to vote for him twice today. =)

whatever it is, i hope he pulls thru to the semi finals.

and i hope that this is not another popularity contest, but a contest that awards pple for their talents.

Photo blogging part 1

these days, im lazy to blog.

some updates

1. the thrio @ anderson's marina
2. commencement 2005
3. adam cheng @ airport! =)
4. live @ nkf cancer show
5. conrad hotel

stay tuned for some photo blogging when i'm in the mood. wahaha.

im a lazy gal.

something is wrong with my right leg. i feel acute pain when i walk. other than that, all's fine.

mabbe i'm getting old le. =/

x time for bed. =) nites world.

i cant explain the emptiness within myself.

things may sometimes not go the way you want.

but i just wanted to say

you're already a winner in many ways :)

took a personality test at get to know yourself better

the results scare me.

the majority of it is so damnn true. =/

xxx xxxx xxxx

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

"衷心地希望你在人生的路上，永远不会受到任何伤害"

why is it that i felt like being stung when i read this.
why can't some people understand.

xxxx xxxx xxxx

i'm up so early cos' my tuition had been postponed to tmrw.

so much for getting up early.

and i have to get up early tmrw.

*sulks.

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the day started off badly, i had barely 5 hrs of sleep last night, got up feeling grouchy n i had eye bags that were pretty obvious.

*pissed.

and i was running late so i conveniently left my hp at home.

my handphone!!!

i think i got severe hp syndrome. cos i felt damn uncomfortable the whole day. i only realised that i forgot it when i was on the bus. and i contemplated going home to get it, but that would result in me having to cab to work. which is no good.

so no choice. argh~

i din want to make any plans for the night. cos i just wanted a quiet fri night to stay home n watch cable. wahhaha.. haven't been spending time with mum too. i was so happy when 5 came cos that means i can go home for my fone.

but decided to head to ip to collect my one week pay!! me and agnes got lost in tanjong pagar. when ip was right beside the mrt. *faints. we're both direction idiots =
home sweet home with my fone now! :D

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met up with my new found friends at work. (ok, minus roger) we had some 10 bucks steamboat below my office! it was damn cheap. but it wasnt damn good. or rather, the food was fresh, especially the prawns but the broth wasnt good at all

*shakes head.

you pay for what you get. nothing in the world is for free!

but it was pretty fun. i laffed a lot and thus din eat a lot. cos i was full from laffing. what's new. and it was the first time i had beef in steamboat! (cos, my daddy cant eat beef ma) and i had loads of beef in fact. and i even tried beef stomach! it's nice wor, tastes like pig stomach. heh.

bloated from food n drinks.

we left for home after that. but later when the guys were gone, we decided to go esplanade to walk around!. wahaha... had loads of fun at esplanade taking photos. acting like silly tourists and tasting sea water. *-*'''''

left for home at abt 11. cos there was still work the next day.



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had some training after work at 6.30. so me n agnes made use of the break for some pedicure! (well, okay she did manicure, heh) the process took so long that we were late.

and when we left the place, it was raining. *faints. we had no choice but to bash the rain. and i was so worried abt my slipper falling out and the new pedicure being ruined.

luckily none of that happened. wahhaa.

but we were still late for 15 mins. it was damn paiseh to enter the room. simon looked pissed :( but he turned out to be pretty nice after all, the training ended in half an hr and we stayed behind to crap with him so tat we can get paid more. wahaha.

had drinks at terra's after that. i had strawberry-kiwi shake. the drinks were supposedly damn good. but well, i find it normal only ba. but they had shirley temple! my favourite mocktail :D

home sweet home and cabled.



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alright, finally updated what i wanted.

the week has passed damn fast. it was probably a happy week too.

minus the fact that i found out that some 'friend' has fed me with packs of lies. but anyway, the good thing abt it is that i learn to grow out of unhappy things. nothing can affect me the way it did in the past anymore.

i just know that dun do unto others what you dun want others to do unto you.

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and it taught me that
"good things happen to people who wait"

gotta get up early for tuition tmrw. havent had a chance to sleep late in ages. hopefully no work on sunday.

but at least i dun feel aimless anymore.

goin to stare at the telly again!

*adios.

work makes me a dull gal..

ive things to blog but i'm tired.

just some little teeny weeny updates.

things are indeed looking up. (hoping it stays)

1. let go of unhappy stuff
2. grand dad's discharged! :) hope he will always be in gd health!
3. jus managed to clear difficult hurdle
4. more mango shopping. i like!
5. meeting new friends
6. terra's & pedicure
7. 10 bucks steamboat buffet!
8. esplanade, yet again.

time flies when i'm working.
TGIF

and it's the start of a new month.
goodbye jun and welcome july :)