fears ... ...

mahjong-ed today. simply wasnt in the mood. my mind was perhaps somewhere far far away. lost eventually but not much.

today made me feel that i really worry too much.

first, grandpa's in ICU.

yeah, for such things i know it's better to remain optimistic.

ahh well. this is typical of me. worrying abt things like if the lift door will close on me when i enter the lift or being scared of a cat brushing against my leg.

yes, such things sound stupid to most.

on the way home just now in roger's car, there was a very bad jam allthe way to my house. i felt damn bad abt it. cos they were supposed to go play pool.

and when approaching my house, we realised there was a major accident. suddenly my tots ran wild cos earlier on i msged my mum and she din reply me which was unusual.

i was damn worried all the way back. altho i din show it.

when i exited from the lift and saw that my front door wasnt latched properly. for the first time, i was freaking happy. cos that's characteristic of my daddy.

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yeah, mabbe i think too much and worry too much abt unneccesary stuff which usually turned out to b false alarms.

feeling really incoherent.

i should go sleep soon.