of indulgence

* a sunny sunday.

yesterday i self declared a break from sch work and me and juss went on a shopping spree. ok, he did, not me. hehs. its really rare that he ends up with more shopping bags den i did. :(

its been so long since i last breathed the orchard air. and just mingling with the crowd made me really happy.

juss got himself some really nice shirts and berms. and a pair of golf shoes.

and also kindly sponsored these.

nice ma?

actually i wanted to get another design. but they didnt have my size. and the woman told juss that stock will only arrive at the end of the year. so longg. i din really want to wait. :p

anyway, speaking of shoes, when i went for the csfb test on fri, i wore my sis shoes since i had no covered shoes. and by the time i reached city link, my leg was hurting like mad. by the time i ended the test, i couldnt walk more. then i cabbed home and when i took out the shoes. a piece of skin abt the size of a 50 cents coin was gone from the heel of my foot, looking bloody and all.

=(

that was juss' idea to get a pair of birkies. kinda totally unrelated but i like the excuse. after not shopping for ages, i feel kinda pampered :)

of the good and bad things in life.

it's a pretty sad thing to have walked past an old fren but not acknowledging each other.

to that fren of mine, if you're ever reading this. sorry i had to pretend i didnt see you. cos it would have made me a fool to shout out to u only to realise that for some reason that i have no clue abt, u had already stopped talking to me.

sometimes i just wished that pple could be more truthful abt their feelings. after all, im pretty much a say-what-i-feel person. you either love me or hate me for that.

yah. but on a chirpier note, i am smelling the weekend. :D

anyway, today i travelled all the way to the north to meet juss. it was supposed to be a surprise as I was a little more free than other days and on those days that i was really stressed up, he came to school to pick me up everiday. so yeah. but my surprise was quite a flop.

i left sch abt 5 plus.reached at 6 plus. (the journey to khatib is surprisingly shorter than i imagined) went to shop and save to walk around. tried to drag my time and spent abt 0.5 hrs there. then i sat around the mrt station to wait. wait wait wait. till i got a little bored so i walked to the bustop and did some people watching. till 8 plus, still there wasnt any call. then i walked back to the mrt station and went to 7 eleven. it soon became a 2.5 hr wait.

seriously, im amazed at my patience. if you know me, u will know tat i really hate to wait for pple.

if you really love her, you've gotta set her free

back from tuition. and really really tired. slept abt 3 and got up at 8 just for tuition. i was really dreading it. sigh. especially when i got so much to do. but responsibilities calls.

havent updated for quite some time cos ive been spending a lot of time in school doing project.even my free days are burnt. but i should be grateful at least I still have my weekends ;p anyway, despite having so much to do, i took a little break and watched this yesterday.

had intended to watch Deuce Bigalow instead since i am not really a big fan of thrillers but there wasnt any sofa seats available so we settled for this. anyway it was really much much better than I expected, especially the twist in the plot. Jodie Foster's acting skills are really good and her expressions made me cover my eyes abt 1/3 of the show. i think i have a weak heart. ;p and so i gave this show 4 stars out of 5. I have no idea why some mags rate it only 2 stars. hehs

anyway, there are gonna be so many nice songs coming up! why do nice shows always come up during exam periods.

i wanna watch this!

the chicken is so cute. the head so big. :D

and of cos, HARRY POTTER AND THE GOBLET OF FIRE. cant wait. it's been 1.5 yrs wait. but its coming out like 2 days before cf exams. argh.

ok, so the afternoon was spent playing mahjong! i broke my promise to myself abt not playing mahjong. but this time we played with ryan and his gf, who are really nice pple. it was really more of a frenly game, although we played up the beat and played 30 60 cents. im amazed i actually agreed to it. but anyway i won money!

ok! its time to hit the books and mug for OM test. till then.

have a great week ahead peeps! :D

it was a really happy 23rd

p.s the title doesnt link to the post, i know. haha. but ive been addicted to heaven knows lately. ;p

identity crisis.

that's wad i think im sufferring from. at least my own definition of it

yeah. presentation's over. but i duno wad to make out of it. as expected i started off very fast. but cheryl dearest prompted me whenever i went too fast. thanks gal :D

but mabbe it was still too fast for prof to understand. i was given quite weird loooks and somehow he din ask me any questions at all. which is damn weird. it could b a very gd sign or very bad sign..

shrugs i duno.

anyway, i think im sufferring from the above cos i seem to feel very aimless these days, even thou i have tons to do. i start to doubt my abilities when deadlines are screaming at me.

suddenly it occurred to me that i duno wad i want in life. okay mabbe deep down inside i know. but somehow my aims are pretty unachievable. at least in this realistic world.

i used to b very confident. whatever happened to the confident me?

okay 2 projects + 1 test + 1 assignment to go.

cant wait for 4th nov.

just a quick one..


m so stressed today.

cos intro talk is tmrw.
one proj + presentation due in 2 weeks
one proj + presentation due in 3 weeks
1 assignment in 1 week
and exams are abt1 mth away!!

faints.

im so stressed that im prone to flare ups.

actually, when i get angry with pple for no reason, i usually feel guilty when i've cooled down then i apologise.

but when im not in the wrong, i dun feel guilty. so no matter wad pple think or say or do, i have my stand.

and a very gd fren told me, that i should just be who I am. dun care wad others think or say.

and yes, i think so too.

so yeah, wish me luck for my intro talk okie.

anyway jiawen was really sweet today, sent me a gd luck msg for my talk. it reminds me of the gd old tk days.

i hope not many pple turn up for my talk tmrw. even if many do, i hope no one asks me tough questions.

back to dreadful work.

it seems ..

when you have high expectations, you're likely to be disappointed.

when you have no expectations, a pleasant surprise is just in store for you!

this happened when i told juss not to pick me up today cos he had to start work earlier tmrw and he agreed. but when i stepped out of class, i got his call, saying that he's in school waiting for me :)

thank you for making my day.

anyway, i got a B+ for that horrid FM test.

it wasnt that gd when u look around you but that's what i mean abt having low expectations in the first plc.

i'm pretty happy with it already. :D

the weekend-ly post

this weekend past extremely fast, despite the fact that my weekend started on thursday afternoon.

started with some mj session on fri night cos' i told myself i needed a break from work, and mj sounds like the most other relaxing thing to do.

met up with some of roger's frens over drinks at chijmes and supper on sat night. pretty interesting bunch i tot. coming from various different countries! 2 of them were actually for taiwan whom i found pretty interesting to talk too. plus they all worked in pretty amazing foreign banks :D i've always looked up to such pple anyway.

they asked me who was the most popular singer in singapore, for some reason i wanted to say kelly. but decided not too. it's pretty dumb. so i said JJ. haha. duno why that came out of my mouth, prob cos ive been listening to many of his songs lately. and he sure does bear a strong resemblence to jy.

so they called jay xiao zhou. haha. so cute. oh yeah, and it just confirms my beliefs that taiwanese gals are all very pretty :D

had supper at you tiao da wang. i would have prefer the one at selegie more thou, cos they offer cold tau huey. but you tiao is yummy!

reached home at 2 ++ am and concussed. speaking of which, ive been sleeping like at 2++ 3 am over the weekend and getting up at 8 plus. really zonked out.

sunday evening, my mummy, daddy and sis went to macritchie to talk a walk cos mum have been wanting to go there for a long time(i wonder y thou) while me and juss studied cos there was really too much work for me to do.

den we picked them up and juss drove us to eat fish head steamboat at whampoa. dad's reccomendation. and guess what? we waited a blardy 50 mins for dinner to be served. it's been so long since i last had the patience to wait for food for tat long. *faints.

it wasnt that gd eventually. but since it's daddy's recc and we havent really dined out in long while, i just said it was gd all the same :D

anyway, today left sch at 7 plus. wanted to stay for the refreshment but cheryl's bf was picking her up and he said he could drop me at 85. i was damn hungry on the way back so i asked yu if she wanna meet me for dinner. that gal had already eaten and showered. but she still made the effort to come down to meet me! *thanksss gal*

somehow i was feeling pretty much alone and lazy to go home on my own, so i really felt so happy when she said she wuld meet me! sooo we sat down for hokkien mee and sugar cane. and juss came to pick me up after work.

he too haven't had his dinner so i da bao carrot cake for him. and i took the wheel while he ate his dinner and i drove yuu home! haha. she's officially the first person i have sent home. yayyy! but for being such a sweetie pie, it was the least i could do! :)

thank god for such great pple i have in my life! :D