ok, so ive finally decided to move to a wp server!

say hello to protected posts and a neater layout. this layout is really getting a little too untidy.

ok, if you're interested enuf, ask me for the new addy! :D

till then, take care guys!

oh yah, something exciting is happening tmrw! =) feeling happy despite the v v sian final talk presentation tt i'm preparing for!

tis' is gonna be a long post.

spent quality time with the family today. :D

had dinner at no signboard seafood restaurant with uncle's fam and my family.

this was an outing that was planned on 2 saturdays back, then postponed to last sat and postponed again to this sat. haha, it's just so hard to get everyone together.

besides, the yummylicious food, had nice chats with my cousins whom even thou stays next door, i seldom see or talk to. talk about busy schedules. sometimes i feel guilty abt that fact. =/

ahh well.

as for the food, let the pictures do the talking.

but before that, usually when i dine out, i seldom will take pictures of the food before i eat, esp if im eating with pple i'm not that familiar with, cos i'm just afraid that they would think i'm that bo liao. honestly, there's only a few times when i whip up my trusty phone cam to take fotos. those are the times prob spent with my family and some of my closest frens.

but i was so glad today that when the first dish came, my cousin sighed and said " aiyah, i forgot to bring my cam". then i whipped up my trusty phone cam and started to take fotos of the food. talk abt someone with the same wavelength. :D

ok so here goes.






talk about saving the best for the last. the last dish before the desserts was the white pepper crabs!



honestly, the food wasnt exactly to die for, but a family gathering is always priceless. :D

and since we happened to be nearby, we decided to drop by my ex babysitter's house for a while! i was really hyped up abt it. honestly even after almost 20 yrs, i'm still happy to visit her house everytime.

my mum used to say i'm the sort of person who 很重感情, which is in some ways very true. the reason why i always felt indebted to my babysitter is cos' i always rem the time when my paternal grandma passed away and how she volunteered to take care of us and somehow always sheltered me from many unhappiness. honestly, at times, i really feel that part of the reason i am what i am today cos of her. probably even the 3rd most impt woman in my life :)

in another way, i was always the closest one to my maid of 8 yrs. in fact, she was the one who used to buy me hotdog bread and coke from the esso near my primary school. and i think i started getting addicted to coke at a really young age. which issen exactly the best thing but i was so close to her that when she left us to go home, i refused to say goodbye and pretended to be asleep. -.-'''

those were the days. and i still think i still value relationships a lot now. but not for those use this against me.

yup.

well, let me do a little recap.

yesterday.

went to harbour front during my break with the babe to repair her cam. we wanted to lunch at sakae, but both of us reached a compromise to eat at yoshinoya so we could spend more on retail therapy. anyway, the beef bowl rox. my 2nd time eating it, and suddenly i dun hate yoshinoya that much anymore.

did some shopping, anyway, retail therapy always works. anyway, the chicken little vcd/dvd is out now! :D will definitely get my hands on it real soon!

after class, had a crazy time at ktv with cheryl. in fact it was the only time that i felt at ease before today. no need for false fronts nor the need to think of how to react. everything was just very straightforward. and honestly, once in a while, i appreciate frank comments.

im pretty glad i decided to go with her to ktv even thou my intial plan was to go home, spend some quality time with myself, and basically sleep. but mabbe she did really influence me and i felt bad abt kinda 'dua-ing' her in a way just cos i din feel good.

anyway, we sang soooo mani songs, (tats the goood thing abt a fewer people ktv session) and anyhow sing some of the duets , although i think we managed 北极雪 quite well :D snacked on fries at the beginning and gobbled prawn crackers at the end. tell me how good that is for your throat. and now i have an ulcer on the tip of my tongue. wth.

had a pretty sad dinner at the coffee shop. to me, its pretty sad cos its a friday night, but on the other hand, the babe was so sweet to spend a little more time with me for dinner rather than rushing off straight.

thanks gal, u really made my friday :D

had wanted to find some plans after dinner, but i didnt know who to ask. train-ed home. there were suddenly a few really weird people on the train. and i couldnt wait for the ride to end. :(

thursday was kelly campus concert. went for it eventually after piahing project till 4 plus am. and it was bloody disappointing.

it was only for a mere 0.5 hrs, there wasnt any seats provided, my view was restricted, and i was so far from the star, the atmosphere was simply not there, and most importantly, i got neither her autograph nor a snapshot with her.

for sth that i waited so long for, honestly, it was just so unworth it. i could feel myself sulking through the concert, deep in my heart of cos. the only consolation was probably the fact that i managed some not very close photos.

but the stingray for dinner made up for everything, or so i think. but honestly, the stingray at 85 is the nicest one by far. the rest ive tried are either, not hot enough, or too hot or simply not tasty enuf.

anyway, im tired, photos.


hope everyone had a great weekend, it has been 10,000 yrs since i last caught a movie. but there are just so many things to do!!

random ones.

u noe its true why people say u cant look forward to sth too much cos when that day comes, something wuld crop up.

and guess wat? i may not b able to make it for the concert tmrw.

honestly, im not feeling as disappointed as i ought to. mabbe cos in the first plc, a certain part of myself wasnt that keen to go. i duno why.

i think im pretty weird.

coincidence or wad? why wouldnt people just learn to treasure what they have.

you noe the next time sth liddat happens, u just dun expect to let things go ur way again.

i used to wonder if there's sth wrong with some of the people i work with, but i realised that the prob actually lies with me. im a bad team player. i just cant work in grps. tats why i hate projects.

honestly some pple just shouldnt be given chances.

they say, "once bitten twice shy"

for me, its like "a thousand times bitten, the thousand and one time shy" and then i get bitten again.

i know this entry is confusing. if you understand it, u just do. if you don't it most prob means it doesnt concern u.

geddit?

but anyhow, it was really good blogging it all out. my blog is like my worthy other bestie.

"you know you're really graduating when your fave pen is used up but u are not intending to buy a new one"

today was maxed out. in fact i feel like doing nth when i got home except to watch tv or sleep.

i had spent more than 12 hrs today.

lesson. mug. lunch. lesson. project meeting. home

after the meeting, i was really a little sian. partly cos i had no dinner at home and i know everione's out. and mabbe cos it had been a long tues and i really wanted to dine out. but this is also one of the times when if i cant find the right company i rather not have any.

was damn tempted to cab home. but didnt, and ended up at eunos to reward myself with a chicken wings set. :D

felt a little better. and happier when i saw daddy was home. and not long after, sis came back with these for me!

CL sweets + cookies.

she bought it mainly for the box. but i will somehow finish it cos of the 心意 :D

honestly, ive missed tokin to my sis for some time, since she started work last week, i think i barely speak 10 sentences to her in 5 days. =(

but managed to have a nice little talk over the weekend.


OH, before i forget, i slotted in collecting the kelly tickets in between my breaks. i am so damn happy la.


actually ydae i was feeling half dead, but somehow when i checked my nus mail, i was so damn excited and began calling pple or smsing pple to ask them to apply for the tickets too! actually even wanted to borrow matric card to help ln apply de, but i forgot it was too early for her! =(

anyway, im really lookin forward to thursday! my first ever 校园演唱会! mabbe i might even get a chance to have a snapshot with her! or at least get her to autograph my cd! yayy.. cool just thinking of it made me feel more energetic.

alright, finally a good break tmrw. yah right. its gonna be spent doing catching up on tutorials. ive very very behind in my modules.

it's a sunday dedicated to tutorials + projects. what's new?

feeling a little overloaded. have spent abt 4 hrs on a tutorial. which is still undone.

wth.

it doesnt help that i onli had abt 5 hrs of sleep last night, went to sleep at 6 am, only fell asleep abt 6 ++ am when i heard my daddy waking up. and got woken up at 12 for lunch.

reason? i encountered sth that caused me to be really freaked out last night, or rather 2 plus am in the morning. i made a silent promise that i wouldnt go up the lift on my own so late ever again.

anyway, sorry ln that i woke u up and gave u the creeps too. dui bu qi!

thankfully i had company till 6 am, on msn.

other than that, yesterday was actually a pleasant night. besides the fact that i hated shopping alone on a sat evening, even at parkway, somehow the crowd is very intimidating. and i felt very loserish to be out alone.

dinner at crystal jade to celebrate crystal's bdae. the baby girl is really cute! haha, its amazing how fast babies grow.

then i met ln at suntec. we finally settled down at esplanade Haagen-Daz . it was always good meeting ln, and the chats are always good. then we sat at the river when the shop was abt to close. its been very long since i last dropped by esplanade. and i really missed the talks by the river. it feels like u just wish that time would reach a standstill.

then ln's first visit to 85! i wasnt even hungry to begin with. but since we were there, we had to eat the bak chor mee. we both shared a bowl. no stingray to speak of, cos the shop was closed, which is just as well cos i sensed an impending sore throat.

but somehow i didnt expect tat a supper would cause so many problems to surface. mabbe im just not very capable of handling feelings and controlling my expression and mabbe putting certain things across. sorry.

ahhh well, enuf of unhappy stuff. yes, cos i just wanna be happy and feel happy.

and im happy cos i spent lotsa quality time with ln this weekend.





sometimes, i really wish i could fly to the moon.

"i can always count on you to be there..
with you the joys are twice as fun,
the sad times are half as sad.
Thank you for being you!"

simple words but they meant a lot.

i just wanted to say the same back to u! :D

sorry that i wasnt always there at times i knew when u needed me. but thanks for always believing in me!

receiving this at the end of a really sucky week helped a lot. thank you very much, ln! =)

in the last 50 m of my run,

i tripped and fell.

the fall that ripped me of my confidence once again.

will i ever survive this?